Monday, November 12

Feeling is Believing



Our country is indeed a heaven on earth.
I really adore the people behind this film, 'cause they gracefully captured Indonesia's wonders and warmth.
Proud to be an Indonesian :)

Monday, October 8

Yes,

everything definitely happens for a reason.
Be careful of what you wish for. :)

Monday, September 24

Lifecycle Video


another inspiring video by The Holstee Manifesto.
Life is short, baby!

Sunday, September 23

If life gives you a lemon,

 make a lemonade instead.

That's one of the art of living.
It is your choice to dwell in the past or make the best of today and tomorrow.
We may not know what the future holds, but hey, life goes on!
We just can't sob and regret our mistakes.
We just can't sit and pity ourselves.
I always believe that "Everything happens for a reason", tho.
I believe it's gonna be a good thing eventually. :-)

p.s. happy wedding Tante Nita :)

xx

Wednesday, August 29

I hate disappointments.

Yet I've disappointed you many, many times.
When was the last time I make you proud anyway?

All I can do now is learn from this, I must learn from this, and find the possible solutions soon.

You're right. We can buy anything but time.

Monte Carlo. 2011.

I'm so sorry for disappoint you. Again.

Wednesday, August 8

The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.

Albert Einstein
Jakarta. 2012.

Tuesday, August 7

Let's move!



New goal: Make this kind of video before 25.


p.s. can't wait for the trip!

Monday, July 30

Everyone has their own past
Good people are losing their ways back then. You must give them hope that they deserve.

Saturday, July 28

Kebiasaan.
Menyia-nyiakan ketika sudah mendapatkan.
Mudah ya? Ya, memang mudah.
Semudah aku menyia-nyiakan mimpi-mimpiku, kamu, ke dalam bak sampah.

Tuesday, July 24

Be a Dog

People should learn from dogs.
They're all about loyalty.
Passionate.
Easy going.
Lovable.
Less neurotic.

Would you be a 'dog'?

Sunday, July 22

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
:)

Saturday, July 14

Mengingat-ingat ingatan yang tidak penting untuk diingat itu seperti mencekoki diri sendiri dengan semur jengkol.
Menyiksa.

Thursday, July 12

Mati Muda

aku tidak pernah suka kata mati
mati berarti berhenti
mati berarti tidak ada lagi
mati itu pergi
tapi aku selalu suka kata muda
muda berarti ceria
muda berarti terbuka
muda berarti bergelora
muda itu mengembara


ketika dua kata itu padu,
suka tidak suka aku


anggaplah ia mati muda
ia pergi dengan ceria
ia tak ada lagi namun masih bergelora
ia pergi untuk mengembara
pergi, tinggalkan semua
pedih, namun semua di luar kuasa
nasib manusia, siapa yang nyana?

...

Anggaplah kamu pergi untuk mengembara di dunia yang sama sekali berbeda, Fan.
Selamat ulang tahun ke-20. :)



July 11th, 2012
to our dearest friend, Angelina Yofanka

Wednesday, July 4

Madeleine Bistro pour Le Déjeuner

I've been longing for French food quite a while. Finally on a fine day, I went for a lunch at Madeleine Bistro with an old friend of mine, Edlin. It's located at Kemang and obviously is quite far from my office, but heck.. qui s'en soucie?
Un endroit très intéressant.
It's a nice place to grab a casual lunch or even romantic dinner with your loved ones.
The red color on the wall, bold blue sofa, makes the restaurant felt bold and edgy unlike similar French restaurant with elegant and romantic interior. Nice.
La nourriture est également délicieuse.
We picked escargots a la Madeleine for the entree.
I ordered Confit de Canard and Edlin ordered Ballotine de Volaille crepe. Always love how the chef served the dishes. <3
confit de canard
 Ballotine de Volaille crepe

C'est tres bien!


xx

Thursday, June 14

Another You

I'm gonna sing my way away from blue.
I'm gonna find another you. Again.

To be quite honest, it's really a tiresome thing to do when you grow older.
I'm enough with all the stages in relationship. (Well, I prefer to call it relationshit. Ha!)
Yet, the show must go on baby.
Dare to fail is the only way to keep me moving forward.

Shall we dance?

Sunday, June 3

Enough is enough.
The heart deserves what it actually deserves. Eventually.

:-)

Thursday, May 31

Time is your most precious resource, and yours is fleeting.
courtesy of Kalung Drupadi

Monday, May 21

Today is friggin Monday after the superb long weekend holiday.
Time to go back drowning in tasks and projects until the end of this month.
Reality bites but heck.. I will survive. Eventually!

Saturday, May 19

Lacking?

I definitely have lack of courage.
I can try but I choose not to.
I prefer to not to.
You know, sometimes you feel there's something broken deep inside but all you can do is none.
The scar is obvious.
It's there, it's there, and it won't go anywhere.
It is out of my league.

Pain and suffer teach me one thing, never get too attached too something or else you'll end up broken-hearted.
Same thing goes to people, and even worse.
I guess, I no longer believe with romance nowadays.
I guess.




p.s. something sweet, literally sweet, is what I really need now.

Thursday, May 10

Perkara Pernah

Texas highway, 2011
Pernah sakit, pernah sembuh.
Pernah pahit, pernah manis.
Pernah sulit, pernah mudah.
Pernah salah, pernah benar.
Pernah diam, pernah bicara.
Pernah menyerah, pernah berjuang.
Pernah kalah, pernah menang.
Pernah sembunyi, pernah berlari.
Pernah jatuh, pernah berdiri.
...


Apalah artinya jika belum pernah mencoba semua?
Apakah dengan tidak pernah kita pernah hidup?

Wednesday, May 9

Anxiety

Anxiety is probably the best word to describe my mind, my body, and my all lately.
Oh dear Almighty, please do guarantee it's gonna be okay till the end?
Pretty please?

Tuesday, May 8

Menjangan

Pulau Bali. Tidak pernah tidak pulau tersebut membuat saya terpukau setiap kali saya bertandang kesana. Orang-orangnya, budayanya, tempat-tempatnya, makanannya, alam bawah lautnya, kemistisan-nya, suasanya... ah! Tidak akan ada habisnya kalau mau membahas tempat eksotis ini.

Kali ini, saya ingin bercerita akan salah satu alam bawah laut Bali yang begitu cantik. Kebetulan, saya adalah open water diver, penyelam pemula yang tahun lalu juga mengambil lisensi di sana.

Bulan Juli 2011, saya dan beberapa kawan saya melintasi pulau ini dari selatan, kota Denpasar, hingga ke bagian barat laut. Pengalaman yang tidak terlupakan. Jika selama ini yang saya tahu perjalanan terjauh saya di Bali adalah ke Ubud dan sekitarnya, saat itu saya merasakan perjalanan panjang nan berliku yang luar biasa untuk mencapai Pulau Menjangan.
Ya, pulau Menjangan.

Berada di kawasan Taman Nasional Bali Barat, pulau ini masih tergolong sepi, tidak seperti Ubud, apalagi Seminyak dan Kuta. Yang terlihat justru turis mancanegara yang berasal dari Australia, USA, Canada, dan lain sebagainya. Turis-turis yang datang kesana sangat terlihat antusias untuk menikmati keindahan alam bawah laut, entah itu snorkeling maupun diving. Terlihat dari peralatan-peralatan yang dibawa, kebanyakan dari mereka bukan untuk sekedar sunbathing atau chillaxing, tetapi memang khusus datang untuk menjelajahi keindahan bawah laut Menjangan seperti yang kami lakukan saat itu.

Setelah 5 jam perjalanan dengan mobil naik turun pegunungan, dari mual luar biasa sampai sudah lupa rasanya mual, sampailah kami di pos penyeberangan ke pulau Menjangan pukul 11.30 AM. Cukup terlambat untuk melakukan penyelaman, yang biasanya dimulai sejak jam 10-11 siang. Namun kami sangat gembira cuaca hari itu sangat cerah! Sangat mendukung visibility penyelaman kami hari itu dan mendukung program tanning kami juga! Hahaha yea right.
Hari itu kami menyelam di 2 dive sites, post 2 & coral garden yang tergolong beginner-friendly, arusnya tidak terlalu kencang dan visibility baik. Menjangan sendiri termasuk salah satu dive spot dengan spesies ikan dan terumbu karang paling kaya di Bali, lho! Tidak heran saya sendiri sungguh excited untuk melihat spesies-spesies unik yang bisa ditemukan di Menjangan, seperti sweetlips, angelfish, batfish, bahkan hiu. Oh ya, dive trip ini adalah trip pertama saya setelah mendapatkan license. Sangat tidak sabar sekaligus juga deg-degan saat itu.
 Here they are, some of underwater photos that all captured by my dive buddy yang lebih ahli. Maklum waktu itu masih amatir dan mash panik pegang camera sendiri. Hahaha.

I saw shark in the deep blue ocean!! Jauh sih, tapi adrenaline rush-nya berasa banget. Sumpah.

Sebelum melakukan penyelaman kedua, kami break untuk makan siang. Saya keburu penasaran dengan apa saja yang ada di Pulau Menjangan, so then I took a walk ke around the island bersama seorang teman saya setelah makan nasi box yang kami bawa dari Denpasar.


Dari bawah ataupun dari atas permukaan laut, semuanya cantik.

Dan akhirnya penyelaman kami hari itu berakhir sekitar pukul lima sore. Time flies so fast when you have fun, indeed! Saya berjanji suatu hari saya akan bertandang kesana lagi plus ke taman nasionalnya juga. Dengar-dengar di taman nasionalnya juga terdapat resort cantik yang tidak kalah menggoda. Coba cek situs ini untuk info lebih lanjut. Untuk bulan madu atau liburan barsama teman atau keluarga yang lebih menyatu dengan alam Bali, rasanya Menjangan lah jawabannya. :)
At the end, it was a fascinating trip I won't forget.
See you again, beautiful Menjangan :-)

xx


Saturday, May 5

I'll carry you home tonight

tonight, we are young
so let's set the world on fire
we can burn brighter than the sun
We are young -FUN

Have a great weekend!
xx

Smile or die?

Fall in love with this really interesting video from RSAnimate.
check it out and smile :-))

Friday, May 4

Setiap perjalanan pasti ada akhiran.
Begitu pula dengan perjalanan tanpa tujuan.
Sekian dan mari menyelam di samudera harapan.

Monday, April 30

No remedy


Will need no remedy.
It will all remain as good memories.
No worries, baby.
:-)

Sunday, April 29

Keinginan

Keingingan itu manusia.
Keinginan itu selalu ada dan akan terus ada selama manusia itu hidup di dunia.
Namun ada kalanya keinginan-keinginan itu tidak dipenuhi manusia.
Tidak semuanya, tidak selamanya.

Menahan keinginan-keinginan yang sebenarnya kurang berarti, bahkan tidak berarti, sebenarnya memberi arti yang lebih dalam hidup.
Menahan keinginan itu bukan berarti aku tidak ingin, tetapi bahkan terkadang sangat ingin. Sangat, sangat ingin, sampai-sampai terkadang emosi mengawinkan keinginan itu dengan kebutuhan.
Tapi apakah benar itu kebutuhan atau hanya keinginan kedagingan semata?

Aku rancu.

Aku manusia.

Thursday, April 26

Kebun Raya Bogor

Hari yang hangat dan sibuk seperti biasa.


Tapi semua yang biasa itu belum tentu biasa-biasa saja, ternyata.
:-)

Saturday, April 21

"Worry drains the mind so much of its power and sooner or later, it injures the soul."

Monday, March 19

Senin pagi yang kelabu.
Namun tidak hatiku.
Sepertinya, aku menemukan semangat baru.
:-)
p.s. thanks Emily!

Sunday, March 18

Cinta Terlarang



Jeritan hati yang tertahan oleh norma dan etika yang berlaku.
Untuk siapapun kamu di luar sana,
yang pernah seperti aku.
Dulu.

Saturday, March 17

Abang None Jakarta Utara 2012


Be a none of Jakarta Utara was one of the best thing in my life and I never regret the decision I made 8 months ago.
I've learnt so many things that I'm sure I won't get from any other places. (I'll share with you some of them and how they affect my life, stay tune!)
Furthermore, I met new brothers and sisters, my new 'family'.
I'm so grateful :-)


Don't miss this opportunity again this year, Bang Non!
You will never know unless you try.

Thursday, March 15

Kalau memang itu caramu,
sepertinya aku suka caramu.

Wednesday, March 14

pergi untuk kembali

Kata orang,
semua orang pada akhirnya akan mati.
Aku, kamu, mereka akan mati.
Cepat atau lambat, di suatu waktu nanti.

Kenapa kamu secepat ini?

Kalau saja hati dan logika ini dapat mengerti.
Sayangnya tidak mampu, aku tidak mampu mengerti.

Kamu pergi untuk kembali kan?
Ya kan, Fan?

Tuesday, March 13

To be

To be fearless, not senseless.

To be brave, not coward.

To be cautious, not foolish.

To be clever, not mindless.

To be myself, not anyone else.

:-)

Monday, March 12

A true friend

(I'm inspired to make this post, because a very rare thing happened to me this morning)

It's a fine Monday morning, well, not a really good one, since I had to woke up for morning class and my body didn't really cooperate with me. (p.s. PERIOD'S SUCKS.)

I went to campus with a friend of mine. Since I knew this person, I believe that God is really good! His house is quite close to mine, and yes he is a very nice person. This is bizarre!! It's been 3 years I've studied in UI and I haven't known people who have the same living area and also drive to campus everyday. In short, we often go to campus together after since. I call it as an action to save fuels and earth. Ha-ha (If you read this, I wholeheartedly say thank you!)


ANYWAY,
he put a on a record of Jakarta Praise Community Church on his CD player and so I got a precious 1,5 hours of morning spiritual doze. (Yes, he's a Christian and I was a bit surprised he has a real faith in it by putting on such thing)
It was talking about finding 'a true friend'. This topic tickled me and eventually made me listening with enthusiasm.

Jose Carol, the priest, said that 'a true friend' is someone who gives you spirit, who ignite your passions. Your true friends should've support you in anytime, through your ups and downs.
In short, true friends are they who stay even when the world is against you.
I strongly agree with that, since I've experienced it myself.

After years I've made friends here and there, I think trust, loyalty, & sacrifices are the main key to make friendship works.
You can call anyone "she's my best friend" or "he's my best friend", but what does a word mean without actions? Have you become a 'friend' for them? Accept her as who they are? Forgive their mistakes? Tell them in their face if they're wrong?

I've ever met those who usually called 'fake friends'. Well, it's kinda harsh word for me, but somehow it's the best word to explain those who only come to you when they have certain intentions from you, people who talk behind your back, people who humiliate you, and so on and so forth.

I was too naive that everyone was a good person and could be a good friend.
This is the art of growing up —you get more experiences and so many lessons learned.
Me in 20 has realized THAT premise is wrong.
What I keep in mind now is that people may be a good person, but may not always be a good friend.

Nevertheless, I still make friends with everyone. Be cautious doesn't mean we should avoid people, I suppose. The feeling of meeting new people and be friend with them still excites me:)
What I've been doing since forever: be grateful for what I have.
Be grateful by maintaining your friends before you lose them and regret it in the end.
Solitude is not a bliss. (Sorry, Tame Impala)

Here's the thing, if you want to have a good friend, be one.
Spare some time of in the middle of your busy days, catch up, and do some quality time with them. Go shopping, gossips, try new restaurants, spa, ah you name it ladies!
Do the talk, not only saying 'I miss you' but do not act a single thing to meet your friends.
Keep it balance, when you have a boyfriend/girlfriend to be taken care of. Instead of too busy love making with him/her, it's nice to take a little of your spare time to meet some friends:)



At the end of the CD, Jose emphasized one thing I love the most:
"The easiest way to prove that someone is a true friend is by making a mistake. A true friend will forgive you and stay, but those who don't will perhaps forgive you, but they will leave you right away."
Touche, Jose, touche.


And so the whole day I was thinking about this and felt grateful that I have wonderful 'true friends' in my life.
Life definitely has no meaning without them :-)

xx

Wednesday, February 8

Pulang


Dan lalu...
Air mata tak mungkin lagi kini
Bicara tentang rasa
Bawa aku pulang, rindu!
Segera!

Jelajahi waktu
Ke tempat berteduh hati kala biru

Dan lalu...
Sekitarku tak mungkin lagi kini
Meringankan lara
Bawa aku pulang, rindu!
Segera!





Sudah tiga hari berlalu dan setiap dengar lagu ini aku semakin rindu.
Cepatlah kamu pulang, Fankalay :-(
Dan lalu...
Air mata tak mungkin lagi kini
Bicara tentang rasa
Bawa aku pulang, rindu!
Segera!

Jelajahi waktu
Ke tempat berteduh hati kala biru

Dan lalu...
Air mata tak mungkin lagi kini
Bicara tentang rasa
Bawa aku pulang, rindu!
Segera!

Jelajahi waktu
Ke tempat berteduh hati kala biru


Dan lalu...
Air mata tak mungkin lagi kini
Bicara tentang rasa
Bawa aku pulang, rindu!
Segera!

Jelajahi waktu
Ke tempat berteduh hati kala biru

Dan lalu...
Sekitarku tak mungkin lagi kini
Meringankan lara
Bawa aku pulang, rindu!
Segera!

Monday, February 6

Angelina Yofanka


It's been almost 34 hours. Fan, please come home soon.
:"(


Reffering sites:
Save Yofanka website
Official release from KMPA ITB
please #prayforfanka

Thursday, January 26

Price tag

Nowadays, It’s all about the money when we meet somebody; what you do, what you wear, where you live. It’s getting too much and I'm just sick of it.
I think we need to value and respect people for what they are and their personality. It ain't an easy thing to do, no?